Broken Thoughts

That night, my phobia of the dark came back that I had to turn the lights on with a quick run. I curled myself in a corner and wrapped myself with my blanket. I felt cold that i had to pull it tighter around me imagining that i was being hugged because i badly needed one. I need not force my eyes open for  I found it hard to sleep. Mr. Sandman finally gave me back my free time but I hated it. I was up all night thinking about things with my eyes welling up in tears. I could even barely  see through my foggy glasses. I again found it hard to breathe as the rain poured heavier by the minute in congruence to how I feel. Funny that it had to pour the moment i started crying.

I felt tired and weary.

I felt alone.

My head pounded like it’s gonna blow and I didn’t know what to do.

But I knew what I wanted.

I knew I didn’t and never wanted to go back.

I wondered how it was like to live without thinking about what's gonna happen tomorrow. That kind of feeling when you don't have anything to fear and everyday feels amazing. That you don't have to be frightened of the unknown when you're assured that you're not gonna wake up alone tomorrow with tears in your eyes and a broken heart.

What a fortunate turn out of events that history had to repeat itself. 

I tightly hugged my pillow and closed my eyes.

I, again, just got my heart broken. 

W I T H O U T Y O U

Blog world!!!

Hi there. I don’t know where I’ve been and what have i been doing that I have not blogged for a really long while and I mean loooooong coz it’s already August 21^st and the last time I posted was June. Two months of not writing and posting anything is like death to me in the blog world. This is already unacceptable. I have to revive myself back so here I am.

I have tried to write things coz there were a lot of things to blog about but i couldn't just keep my eyes open after working hours. My duties seemed to have sucked all the time in the world that i could no longer enjoy a time of my own. Except when i spend time with the people i love best. Well you know who you are but if you don't then i'll make sure you'll know.

Obviously, the title of this post says it all.

Anne Curtis Smith and Martin Nievera’s cover of Without You became a real hit and had been the talk of town ever since they released the video on youtube.

I myself was speechless the first time I saw it. I loved it. In just two days I guess it already had a million views and I don’t know how much of that views were mine. I even put it on repeat mode even though my brother complained a lot. He liked it but not as much as I do.

I didn’t like it because it’s popular nor am I a fan of Anne and Martin. I liked the song even before they made a cover of it. And I loved it because I dedicated it to someone close to my heart. (plus I have to say, Anne looks so gorgeous in the video. Sorry I couldn’t help but notice) =P

I don’t actually care how much autotune there is in their cover (I heard people comment about it). All I know is they did a great job and they deserve applause and all the praises and views they have.

I chose the lyrics I love best from the song.

…I will never be the same

Without You

…I will never make it by

Without You

… All I need is you and I

Without You

…I can’t accept that we’re estranged

Without you

I won’t soar

I won’t climb

If you’re not here

I am paralyzed

Without You

Never been stronger

Never been happier

When you came into my life

You poke to a place where I can standby

But you hope even higher

Can’t keep a life without you in my future

I wish I didn’t get used to this

I wish I never get used to feeling the best

Because I want you

I feel I’m losing you…

…what am I gonna do?

Can I figure out my life without you?

Tell me how to live life independently

From the one giving you happiness abundantly

To you,

I will never be the same without you

I can’t live if living is without you

 PS: i promise i'll update again real soon. *pinky swear*