Realizations 101: Post birthday thoughts

Here I am sitting alone at a coffee shop, hanging out with my dose of caffeine for the day and a book I have been putting aside since the day I bought it. 


Turning 28 has been hitting me hard. Haha. I was not talking about the rush of settling down, getting married and having kids of my own because those are not on the top of my list for the meantime. I was talking about just thinking of what my life is all about - about searching for a deeper meaning. Not everyone I guess experiences that.


I know some friends would tell me, it is about doing the things you haven't done. Perhaps living it like today is your last day. Yes I understand. 

But I believe that our lives are uniquely created in a way that our experiences and learnings on everything that happens to us are not the same.

Growing older, I have realized a lot. From now on, I refuse to be a product of someone elses experiences. Why?
I have the ability to accept and refuse someone's learning and suggestions on how I should live my life.

We handle situations differently. We perceive things differently. Hence my experiences will never be the exact same one as yours and other people.

We can say we've been through it, but we can never really say we fully know what they are feeling. Because in reality, we will never know where the emotions on certain moments are coming from. The reactions we have are fueled by our experiences in the past which have always been different from one another. So our learnings will always be different.

God has different plans for each of us because He wants us to grow. If I follow someone's experience or if I base all my actions on someone elses past, then I am going to grow the same way they had grown and not the way I am supposed to be. 


Sorry, if my thoughts are as jumbled as a ball of thread. I am making sense. I promise.


I'd like to think of it this way, I am going to live my life the way I know how to live it. The way God has been teaching me. And not how people expect me to be.