Rain, Me and Memories

It’s raining.

Yes.

And I am in the mood to blog even though it won't make sense to you (that is, if you’re reading this). 

It must have been the coffee that made me this hyper.

The very moment I stepped out of the mall alone tonight after some Coffee float with my (how I wish) biological sister, Colleen, *winks* I realized how I missed the crowdedness of Manila when rain pours. Another one is the traffic. But never the flood. =P

The rain always drenches my soul and thoughts that I end up being nostalgic.  Perhaps it does the same thing to you as well if you pay close attention.

Then I again came across this photo of a friend on Instagram and Facebook with lyrics on it saying “When you feel all alone, remember good times, remember home”. It’s straightforward enough. 

It again made me smile.

You should listen to the song coz currently i've been singing along to it.

It’s entitled FRIENDS by Hedley.

So add the rain, the coffee, and the song and TA-DA!!! What do you get? A hyper me (Who talks gibberish).

All three combined, elicit memories from the past, and the feeling of how much I miss the people who were with me in the pictures playing in my mind presently. I am actually smiling as I think of them. I’m not crazy. I’m perfectly sane. ^_^ And I don’t think anything could spoil the gladness I have in me right now which is why I wanted to share it. I’ve read somewhere that happiness is contagious so I better do.  But forgive me if I am not really spreading that mood.

What I just wanted to say was, I just don’t know if I've made it through all the frantic moments in my life IF my friends weren't with me. I would have gone mental if no one was there to help me bear the burdens I had and have that I didn't and don’t want to share to my parents and siblings. At times I do trust my friends more (it’s pretty normal, I guess). Thank God, He provided and still provides me with the perfect people to help me stay rational.

It’s always nice to know that they’ll always have your back when you’re in need despite not seeing or talking to them for ages. That they’ll try to squeeze time for you and let you know they care no matter how different your worlds already are. That sense of security they give you that you’ll always have them around.

Life is hard you know. That will never change. But if you’re with the right company then that hard life is bearable no matter how unbearable it may seem.

I just want to thank you guys for sticking around. You know who you are. I’d hug you right now if I could ‘apparate’, but I am sending virtual hugs instead. I've got my fingers crossed that they don’t meet any traffic or anything along the way and reach you safe and sound.

And I hope you’ll stay, and help me finish our story... because it still has a long way to go.

So if you're feeling all alone remember good times or remember home

And if you question all that you see remember that you always got a friend in me

Cause I know we all gotta grow

 These days everybody wants to find out how the story ends

So we say nothing is a possibility if you don't got your friends

And I know as time goes by we're never gonna pretend

Cause you and me will always be friends

*huuuuuuuuuuugs*

xoxo

Nat <3

Scribbles: Sulkiness and thoughts

My heart’s pounding like it’s going to rip open my chest walls. *Breathes*

Gosh. I so wish Sirius would hug me right now. 

I am going to blame the weather. The dullness and drizzle are making me melancholic. And listening to this mellow song isn't really helping as I am not definitely relaxing. What is wrong with me? *Facepalm*

I seriously do not know what to do right now. So here I am rattling the keyboard with my random thoughts. I pity the keyboard; I must have slammed it about a hundred times. It would have bit my hand if it only could, so I’d stop banging it like a drum.

I want to lock myself up for the next few days and think. Just me and my thoughts. SRSLY.

I probably really need a time off. I’m trying to be responsible here. I don’t want to be impulsive at this point  because if I would then at this very moment I’ve already made my decision.

I’ve had this thought going on in my mind and it breaks my heart.

I’ve spent more time staring at the computer screen and keyboard so I better cut this short.

T__T

i love you mom

I was so tired yesterday but Google started my day lightly and made me smile as I enjoyed their Mother’s day Google Doodle. It’s been really ages since the last time I really paid attention to them although I have always been a fan.

But yeah, as I have said yesterday I spent an hour checking what designs can be created but I didn’t manage to finish it. All I can say is they’re just DOPE! ^_^

You can even print the doodle.

Google deserves praise for it.

Now aside from that, i want to post something for Mother’s day. I am not going to make it long because this blog seemed (okay is already) monotonous plus I’m kinda in a hurry right now coz it’s votation day today.

To my mum, I know I am not the perfect daughter you probably wished for but you have loved me for whom and what I am. I'm sorry if at times i answer back and get mad. But thank you so much for always checking up on me when i am not yet home (and even though I lived far from you before). I appreciate it a lot. Thank you because you have always been my shopping and strolling buddy. Thank you for supporting my decisions and the choices i make. Thank you for buying my ‘wants’ and for lending me your bags. Thank you for always being there to listen to my rants. Thank you for making me laugh. Thank you for being my first best friend. Thank you simply for everything. 

Well, i'm glad i missed the celebration last night due to work. Coz it's been quite a while since the last time mom and dad went out without us in the scene. ^_^

I love you. 

Words are not enough for me to express how grateful i have been and will always be to you and Papa.

Too much blah blah

 “Too much of anything could destroy you, Simon thought. Too much darkness could kill, but too much light could blind.” ― Cassandra Clare, City of Lost Souls

Have you read City of Lost Souls? If not, then don’t worry I haven’t either. I’ll try to look for an ebook or a hard copy. But don’t you think it’s a quote worth pondering not only for the day but for every waking moment?

We all prolly know that saying “Too much is bad.” It does apply sometimes, or should I say oftentimes?

There’s even this belief that when you laugh too much or you’re too euphoric something unfortunate’s going to happen next. Now I ask. When does a person ever laugh too much? I mean how can you say it’s already in excess? Even though we’re already in a world where gadgets and machines prevail and prolly does big help (if not much more than what humans can provide), I don’t think people have created something that could measure someone’s happiness. (I shall try to read about that). I believe, that we’re in control of what  happens because of the things we think. About the Law of Attraction. That when we think more of positive thoughts, then, they’ll happen and vice versa. But I am not here to talk about the Law of Attraction. You can read about that in Rhonda Byrne’s book, The Secret.

Geeesh. I am blabbering nonsense again.

I just wanted to say that it is normal for a person to burst (just like a balloon. LOL. Just kidding). No. I meant to lose control over their temper when they are placed under a lot of pressure. Lucky for those who could express their rage easily because they don’t get to hold grudges or whatsoever inside them, they can easily let go because they’ve expressed it. But for those who can’t, then they’ll always resent.

There I go again. Sorry. My thoughts are all mixed up. I am just trying to empty my mind so I can peacefully sleep tonight.

We’re built with limitations. We can only take a specific amount of stimuli until we react. If it goes beyond that point then we’ll definitely explode. People tend to overreact and are misunderstood. Or it just depends on one’s perception.

I get to feel this at times when the stress level is too high. We feel so exhausted, the hustle and bustle of the day has sucked all of our vigor, we just want to bury ourselves under our covers and sleep our way throughout that moment until that feeling’s gone and we feel rejuvenated again. For even the slightest action be it a good one or bad can trigger the bomb to detonate.

Too much of something then is dangerous (prolly won't apply to all). Too much eating can lead to obesity or developing illnesses. Too much love can suffocate(figuratively speaking). Too much freedom can create chaos. Too much joke can hurt feelings and can be taken personally. There are a lot of too much in this world and I can’t specify them anymore.  I’ve done some of these “Too Much’s” at some point in my life and I apologise for whatever inconvenience I have caused. I really do.

I just so wish, somewhere in this article I’ve explained my point. If not, then, nevermind because it’s already 3 in the morning and I have to sleep.

Ciao.