Little White Bear

by Kilroyart

Hey little white bear where have you been?

You just suddenly vanished from the scene

I wonder if you knew how much you're missed

Did you think the world was in bliss?

Hey little white bear, how have you been?

It's been so long, you know i didn't mean

Have you found  a new owner?

You were left tucked alone in a corner

Hey little white bear, what have you been doing?

I bet right now you are happy and enjoying

Forget it I was just kiddin', you know i do

It's just that i miss you, it's true

Hey little white bear who are you longing?

I wish it was me but i'm doubting

Hoping i could hug you that tight again

I will wait in vain if only i can

Hey little white bear don't be mad at me

You once made me happy you see

And for that you have to know

I tucked you away because i love you so

Ode to Jessica Sanchez

J - ust a common girl with big dreams

E - tched in her great being a future that gleams

S - omeone who  the world can look up to

S - he wowed the globe coz of what she can do

I - mmeasurable talent of hers have moved people

C - aptivated hearts and brought joy to all

A - ngelic voice, sweet face and  smile she was bestowed

E – nthusiast of music and giver of hope

L – oved and adored by millions for she is dope

I – nspiration she became to everyone

Z – enith of fame she have reached, Oh young one

A – dorable innocent little girl she still is

B – eautiful voice, in my mind she brought peace

E – xalted here and there her name resounds

T – he victory of magnificence proves she will go miles

H – umbly and simply accepts defeat with her charming smile

B – est of the best she will remain

U –ndying love of Blujays will accompany her name

G – reatness beyond words can say

A – n icon who always completes someone else’s day

Y – es, forever I will be one of her proud Blujay

S – oaring high with stars in the endless sky

A – nother legend she will be it’s not a lie

N – atural, noble and nice she will stay

C – hange nothing baby girl come what may

H – ow and where on Earth will we find another you

E – thereal girl, you haven’t got any clue

Z – esty spirit Oh Jay, without you, our life is totally blue

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I wrote this one for Jay and she listed the tweet as one of her favorites.

I wished she appreciated how much i put time and effort on this one.

i didn't have any idea on what to give her until Chin told me to send her the things i write.

so i wrote this and edited it so i can email it to Randy and have Jay sign it for me

I know you’ll always be there

I have been musing on a lot of things lately and I happened to remember all the great times I had with the closest friends I got. I only have a few and words are not even enough to say how gratifying it is to have friends like them.

I may not be able to recall how we first spoke to each other and how we ended up being siblings but I am so happy I didn’t doubt anything back then when I was trying to fit in. It was definitely worth it pushing my world to know theirs as I happened to have found out that their world isn’t really far from mine. It’s close enough to being exactly like my world that I didn’t have to change myself.

I might have found some friends’ way back, and in life it’s already a cliché for people to say that they will be your friends forever. Yet there’s no reassurance that they won’t turn their backs on you and that they won’t change since the big letters C-H-A-N-G-E are the only consistent thing in the world.

People who’ll be able to read this and doesn’t find their names here might be disappointed or might get mad at me. But it doesn’t guarantee that because I shared something to you or I have known you the longest, you’ll be included here. You might be the only person I was able to run to or talk to at that very moment. I thank you so much though.

I can only count the friends I consider as my closest and bestest above all to five, let’s make it six. They are the people who didn’t try to change me but instead understood, accepted, loved and stayed with me through the happy times, my mood swings, my impulsiveness and the bad decisions, and failures I had. And I guess that’s the most important thing for me aside from being there when I needed someone to talk to. I am a very open person; I try to share or open up to people or write it in this blog when I have problems because it’s a necessity for me or otherwise I might explode. But it doesn’t mean I no longer keep secrets or certain things to myself. So let's go back to the topic.

In this one I’d just like to talk about two of them.

They were with me from the very beginning. We have had our own share of grief and happiness and cried and laughed over them together while we dined at McDonald’s or just sat on a corner and chatted among ourselves. I remember when we were still freshmen’s, and we were having difficult times on some of our major and minor subjects which includes Anatomy, Algebra and some other things, we would hang out at the Campus Lagoon and complain why life was that hard. We were still trying to cope up with College life. We were so young, so innocent so fragile. Close to giving up but we didn't let go of our dreams and managed to get past our goals.

We had a list in our mind back then of what our objectives were.

1.     We’d pass Algebra and Anatomy without having to take the removals – CHECK

2.     We’d ue able to finisu and submit ouruterm and research papers - CHECK

3.     Meet new friends, develop new bonds but never lose grip of the old ones –CHECK

4.     We’d graduate from our nursing course on time –CHECK

5.     We’d pass the board exam on time – CHECK

We used to sing in chorus whenever we have vacant time during College days and I miss those days. We loved to take pictures and the old Friendster social site was a witness however the photos were deleted. We shared secrets, wishes and hopes. We shared the same dreams together and still are after years. And even though we rarely go out now I still feel lucky that I found true great friends in the person of Joven and Lloyd. Their very presence makes me calm and comforts me in times of great need and I have proven that. Though they already were my friends’ way back in highs chool I don’t regret not being close to them during those times because things might have ended differently.

Now as we look back, we laugh over the memories despite being wistful of things. Because we have changed a lot from being those three people who were afraid to soar to being the bold ones we are now.

We’re still young and our lives has just started but I know that no matter where we are and whatever happens, the two will always be there for me because I always will be.

The Rain Clouds Do Break

I have read this article from a local newspaper when i was still in high school that was prolly 2005, i am just not sure. I cut it out of the paper and placed it in my scrapbook which i couldn't find until now. But ever since that day i laid my eyes on this article it never left my mind. It became a permanent resident of my preoccupied brain. The gist of it directed my life. It played a big part of who i am right now. So to whoever wrote this one, i am forever grateful and indebted to your awesome mentality.

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This article is for my friends who need to realize that life must go on and change can be good.

I don't intend to look like a ray of sunshine here, but we can't deny that life is tough enough.

Whether it be a painful memory, a broken relationship, someone who broke your heart or someone who passed away, we all have to move on. Dwelling on the past and seeking happiness in things you can never retrieve are not good and may be two of the worst things you could do to yourself.

It’s important to stop bawling and grieving over the past---that's a good sign of moving on. This doesn't necessarily mean that you deny or reject you past. Your past it is still part of you and it makes you who you are. Part of letting go is simply accepting and admitting to yourself that the past is over---it's finished, done and complete. Realize that there is nothing left for you to cling and hold on to except all those wonderful memories.

Life is all about making memories. You can't make more memories if you live a stagnant life where you are mired in what isn't there anymore. Urge yourself to embrace the future---to look ahead, not behind; to live again and to create new memories. Know that everything that has happened to you in the past, everything you have gone through, is important, but it is more important for you to move forward and grow into all that you are capable of becoming, growing to be the best you can be.

It may take a great amount of time before you start going on again. And then there is, of course, the terrible pain, the anger, the false hopes, the discouragements and denials, the humiliation and the disappointments you have to undergo before moving on. but what matters is that through everything you never give up always get a grip, and keep that little spot in your head that keeps on blinking and telling you that sooner or later you will have to move on.

Know that letting go can't be forced. It must come easily. You must be honest to yourself in saying that you are actually prepared to let go, and it will happen. Do not try to obsessively try to manipulate and control your future. It just won't work.

When faced with terrible pain, you must reopen your heart and mind again, for sometimes we slam the door to happiness. You will have to then try to think about what has happened, remember all the memories and filter them, keeping the ones that will genuinely make you feel better and make you want to move on. Then there is the most essential thing of life that we all must never forget---love. You will have to learn to love again. But before trying to love anything or anyone else, you must remember how it is to love yourself again.

Where there is pain, you must learn to forgive. Forgive the one who has hurt you and forgive yourself for whatever mistakes you may have made and whatever guilt you keep inside you. And after all this, you go on and start creating new relationships.

This process may seem to be extremely difficult, even scary to some. But life no matter how stark it may appear, promises changes. New things are always so much more that offers. Embrace it! Help yourself, and when it all seems to be too hard to manage, there will always be someone there to help out.

Don’t be ever be afraid to ask for help. And when you're all alone there are also a lot of things that will help you move on. For one, there is always reflection. Make your mind work a little and look at life at a grander scale and you will definitely see that life can make you smile sometimes. When you reflect, you can also try and see what you can save in your life. Set your goals and set about trying to achieve them. Try looking at the mirror because it just might help. You just might see how much of a mess you've made of yourself. Not eating (or over-eating), crying gallons of tears a day, and decaying in bed, do not make a pretty picture. You might even laugh at yourself, and that's good, at least you smiled somewhere in between your sorrows. But whatever you decide to do, never forget to pray. Prayers will always help, and more.

To end this article, i would like to give a quote from John Henry Newman, who writes: "to live is to change, and to perfect life is to have changed often." move on, grow and make new memories; there is so much that lies ahead of you, and as my friend once told me, "Milk life for all it's worth."

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