“She believed she could do it, so she did.”

Saturday, July 14, 2012

I know you’ll always be there


I have been musing on a lot of things lately and I happened to remember all the great times I had with the closest friends I got. I only have a few and words are not even enough to say how gratifying it is to have friends like them.

I may not be able to recall how we first spoke to each other and how we ended up being siblings but I am so happy I didn’t doubt anything back then when I was trying to fit in. It was definitely worth it pushing my world to know theirs as I happened to have found out that their world isn’t really far from mine. It’s close enough to being exactly like my world that I didn’t have to change myself.

I might have found some friends’ way back, and in life it’s already a cliché for people to say that they will be your friends forever. Yet there’s no reassurance that they won’t turn their backs on you and that they won’t change since the big letters C-H-A-N-G-E are the only consistent thing in the world.

People who’ll be able to read this and doesn’t find their names here might be disappointed or might get mad at me. But it doesn’t guarantee that because I shared something to you or I have known you the longest, you’ll be included here. You might be the only person I was able to run to or talk to at that very moment. I thank you so much though.

I can only count the friends I consider as my closest and bestest above all to five, let’s make it six. They are the people who didn’t try to change me but instead understood, accepted, loved and stayed with me through the happy times, my mood swings, my impulsiveness and the bad decisions, and failures I had. And I guess that’s the most important thing for me aside from being there when I needed someone to talk to. I am a very open person; I try to share or open up to people or write it in this blog when I have problems because it’s a necessity for me or otherwise I might explode. But it doesn’t mean I no longer keep secrets or certain things to myself. So let's go back to the topic.

In this one I’d just like to talk about two of them.




They were with me from the very beginning. We have had our own share of grief and happiness and cried and laughed over them together while we dined at McDonald’s or just sat on a corner and chatted among ourselves. I remember when we were still freshmen’s, and we were having difficult times on some of our major and minor subjects which includes Anatomy, Algebra and some other things, we would hang out at the Campus Lagoon and complain why life was that hard. We were still trying to cope up with College life. We were so young, so innocent so fragile. Close to giving up but we didn't let go of our dreams and managed to get past our goals.

We had a list in our mind back then of what our objectives were.
1.     We’d pass Algebra and Anatomy without having to take the removals – CHECK
2.     We’d ue able to finisu and submit ouruterm and research papers - CHECK
3.     Meet new friends, develop new bonds but never lose grip of the old ones –CHECK
4.     We’d graduate from our nursing course on time –CHECK
5.     We’d pass the board exam on time – CHECK



We used to sing in chorus whenever we have vacant time during College days and I miss those days. We loved to take pictures and the old Friendster social site was a witness however the photos were deleted. We shared secrets, wishes and hopes. We shared the same dreams together and still are after years. And even though we rarely go out now I still feel lucky that I found true great friends in the person of Joven and Lloyd. Their very presence makes me calm and comforts me in times of great need and I have proven that. Though they already were my friends’ way back in highs chool I don’t regret not being close to them during those times because things might have ended differently.



Now as we look back, we laugh over the memories despite being wistful of things. Because we have changed a lot from being those three people who were afraid to soar to being the bold ones we are now.

We’re still young and our lives has just started but I know that no matter where we are and whatever happens, the two will always be there for me because I always will be.



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