Fallbacks and Decisions

I know this sounds cliché but I’ll say it anyway, we make millions of decisions every day and those are based on our needs and wants. Blah blah blah. I don’t know what to say and I wouldn’t probably make sense but I just have to get these thoughts out of my head so I can sleep without thoughts bugging my head.

You know that moment when you’re stuck to choosing between options which both make sense or perhaps not at all but they just feel right at the time?

Merlin!

That’s how I feel.

I’m mad right now. I’m half happy, half sad. Torn between options. It will be easier if I don’t have to choose… when I don’t have anything to choose from. That way I’m stuck to whatever is the only choice I have. Because the more fall backs I have the harder it’s to decide and to weigh things. I am impulsive which is why I hated having another option for the situation I’m in. I hated that I’d have something to consider because one way or another I’d choose whatever one suggests. Darn! I can’t even pretty decide for myself.

Well, I don’t think I really need it; I just wanted it so bad. That burning desire.

I guess I just have to standby what I think the best option there is, which is the first option and what I have always preferred from the beginning. Just like what they tell you when you’re stuck with a confusing question in an examination, trust your first instinct for most of the time if not always, it’s the right one.

It’s crazy that when the time came for me to cast that verdict, another thing to consider popped into the scene and rattled all the pros and cons I’ve invisibly written.

I just have to believe that my option’s right and there are far better things ahead.