People were so used to seeing me back to my lively self
again that going back to writing the sad thoughts from my head will be
alarming. That must have been my very reason why i have not blogged as often as
I could despite having the time. Plus the fact that I’ve learned to confide
things to someone. However soon enough I’ll come back in here again to drown
myself with my own miseries because I again don’t have anyone to share my
thoughts and worries to.
So here I am again allowing myself to scribble what should
be spoken like how things had always been.
It’s been a while since the last outburst I had. It’s not bad to say I cried again coz it’s the
truth. And I am still in tears right now though I’m trying to hide my already
puffy eyes behind these reading glasses. I know it’s not helping, I just need
something to mask my eyes so people won’t know at first glance. This is hard you know. I just want to cuddle in a dark corner and cry until i can cry no more coz it's what i want to do. But even that fact is hard.
*breathes* I again developed this headache aside from my eyes aching from over crying. Does over
crying even exist? I don’t think so. Hmm. I feel so tired that I’d rather sleep
to not feel the hurt anymore. I’ve done that. But the bad part is, I cry tremendously
everytime I wake up.
It’s a tiring cycle. But what can I do? I think I just have
to live with it.
Sigh.
It will always speak for itself.
