Into the darkness

Wow.
Here is why i hated resisting the Sandman's visit.
After some time of sulking
Whether to write or not to write my thoughts.
I finally gave in.
So here I am
Trying to scribble my jumbled thoughts to free up some space.
And just like that.
The wall i have been trying to keep shattered with just a snap.
Apart from the throbbing headache this bad case of neck strain's causing.
All the emotions came rushing in
And my heart couldn't handle it like how i used to.
And i was not invincible.
I was pretty vulnerable.
So vulnerable.
That i succumbed to it.
And i let the feelings engulf me.
Until i decided to give it a rest.
And i remembered that thought.
That funny thought which made sense.
"Close your eyes and stare into the darkness."
And in someway, staring into it soothed me.
It prevented the tears from falling.
I breathed.
I prayed.
And my storming heart calmed.
I opened my eyes and darkness i see.
I began to feel Mr. Sandman's thug.
Wanting me for now, to close my eyes.
Feeling the weariness inside me.
So again i stared into the darkness.

-Nat